It has been a while…

Now I’m gonna own the ‘teacher’ name tag for real. I had a dream last nite. It was a scene of me entering my first class for the first time.. it was humiliating and a total disaster. Huhu.. Nightmare indeed.

But they say, if u had a dream…u have to turn the story around. So in the real world, i’ll have my first class just nice…Hahah…something to cheer myself up . I certainly hope so.

Anyway..this is it..the outcome of the 10 months -head crushing-DPLI intensif programme. For my beloved coursemates that have been posted in Sabah. Welcome! Looking forward to teach with you girls.

Enjoy your stay in Sabah. Its beautiful and peace in here..you’ll see.. Good luck girls!

Understanding is still beautiful...

Understanding...

Take time to understand a condition that being presented upon you..instead of just mumbling sharp words, slicing the hidden honesty. It would be a relief to you but it hurts the other party.

Protecting your priceless ego by hurting other isnt a victory. Especially to someone that you claim to be so dear to you..

Jealousy and love doesnt always a good combination. Everybody knows that and i'm pretty sure you do too.

Wake up..or you'll find yourself in regrets...

I wonder why...

Why do people have to act like their rules are the standard ones? or their principals are the ones that should become the examples? or that their ego is the one that is worth protecting instead of others?

We lived and grew in various background.... and life experiences induced our thinking...making us who we are now..and we are all different of cos...My opinion might differ from others..Thats one of the earth norms..right?

So...if u are an A and i am a B...we should be an A+B through compromises right? But why do we still fight over something so simple?? I wonder why...

People..the next time u want to start a fight..remember that everybody has their own ground rules and principals.. and we have something called 'explanation' to sort things out..

Eventhough ego is one of the essential element of humanity.. we know that overprotecting it isn't always the way out..

Does anybody has extra momentum to be given away?

Still struggling to finish what i have started...knowing the due date wasnt helping o..ayoo..and its December.. My mum is busy arranging our family's schedule for making sure we attend every family gathering this month..

Parties.. bbqs... gossiping...christmas mood... im sure i'm gonna fall into temptations..haha.. help meeee...i need momentum to finish this...

Cryopreservation and enhancement of Leonurus sibiricus seeds

Its quite a challenge to do something that u are not excited about.. It has been series of postponed semesters to give priority to something else.. hmm...need to get momentum to do this tedious writing.. Claiming to b a master to this topic demands quite a lot.. with the temptations of food and bed...and endless chats ..huhu

Where did i put the results? the journals? and the due date is getting closer..ayoo

Teachers

These were the faces of the young minds that opens my mind to the new perspectives of pedagogy. They were sweet and innocent but have a very demanding needs.. Your best decision might not be their favourite but one thing for sure, they love it when you smile. No matter how high the tension is, your smiles would calm their rebellious intentions. I might be novice..not even officially own the 'teacher' name tag, but i do know that the young ones doesnt need to be scrutinize.

Having the little experience, i am begining to understand the feeling of my previous teachers. Some of them become my idols and i realize that i still remember their words. Still wish to meet and tell them what i've become. Just to add up their reasons to be proud of being a teacher. Especially 'my' teacher.

But.. i do have the memories of teachers that i wish i wont stumble across in life. The reason why i dont favor that specific subject until now. I know i'm being a little bit '......' (not sure what word to use), but they do leave a negative scar in my academic journey. For those teachers..i'm sorry..

You open my eyes to the new approach of teaching though. and i believe, that you believe it was the best way to handle us (ur students). But i also believe that you know u hurt our feeling. Anyway, i thank you for the knowledge that you share with us. And i appreciate for the 1001 things that you have done for us. I wish you all the best.

My journey is still thousand miles ahead..i can only plan what kind of teacher i want to be...not sure what kind of teacher i would turn to, but for sure i'll try to be my own favourite teacher. Thank you teachers..

The end of the evaluation..

For the last three months, our pedagogy skills were put under microscopes. Evaluated by the experts, commented and expected to improve.

Nervousness was our friend for the sudden visit of supervisor. Lesson plans were readied days before the class. Slide shows were perfectly arranged and google image was my best friend.

Finally the final evaluation has passed. The burden goes away together with the A- that i get for my practical. They said that A- is good enough for practical, so..i'm happy enuf with the grade.

Now, going to school is more....relax.. Gonna have fun with the students in my final week here. Share jokes with the teachers..and..see what the 'posting' has for me. ;)