Another weekend...

Hmm...spending my saturday nite with movies.. with a very small laptop screen..i guess this saturday is just another weekend. All the plans were cancelled.. So much for the 'nice' weekend i had in mind. ...sigh... I wish i am not too dependent... I wish it is safe for me to go out alone..i wish kk is just 15 minutes away.. I miss my UMS life.. at least i got my circle of friends :(

The Saturday...

Saturday finally...i get to spend all evening for myself.. i suppose to have everything i need now...but i feel lonely.. Now i prefer my hectic schedule than a lonely evening like this..

I want to go out and enjoy the lovely evening but i don't feel safe to go out alone..this is what happen when you are supplied with so many crime stories.. haha... Im imagining a white beach all for myself...a safe one of coz.. a big bottle of 100 plus, sunblock, sunglasses, shorts, a good book and an MP3 full of nice songs would be enough to make my saturday.. hmm...i wish..

Sitting alone in my room is like giving all the memories chance to come knocking and say 'hi' to my present life. ...sigh... honestly i kind of dunno what to do when they come...

i'm making some positive progress..i know..but would it be enough?.. Is anyboy out there got pills for erasing memories?? I would love to have those pills please..

Hmm...i want my mum... :(

I wasn't okay...

From the moment i wake up, i know that i won't perform as expected. I feel so tired an weak. It was like i had a date with a vampire the night before and he sucked all of my red blood cells out of my body.. I was pale and light headed. And my limbs didn't want to corporate with me..but for the sake of commitment, i gave up all the energy left in me to the game. After the game, i dragged my feet to a clinic. And that was where i dissapoint him.. I swear i could have blacked out if i didn't rush home and lie down.. i've been losing too much blood...without proper breakfast n lunch..and after a few volleyball match..i was pretty much 'wasn't okay'..i'm sorry..

It is a wonder why we feel so fragile in situations like this..Why can't we be strong throughout all circumstances no matter how hard we try??

It makes me realize that i am a mortal :)

I never really think about it before this..but now it sort of open my eyes that my mortal body is degrading..

I have exactly one week before the next test.. and the result of the next test will determine whether my life for the next few weeks (or maybe months...hmm..years?) would be full of tests and stress or routine and smiles... I leave it all to God..He knows better..

But before the day comes, i will fill my days with as much laughter as i can..and enjoy my life as usual (I hope so...n i'll try my best)..

Tommorrow i'll b playing volleyball for the MSKPPM. Wish me luck :)

An outing with my Nathan..

Dissapointed with the careless administration of ###, we decided to not to go home empty handed. A bit exhausted from the late sleep and early wake up, 4 of us determined to explore Kudat. We came across a Rungus Bead Centre signboard and went blindly in. Hmm...What we found was not bad.. They produce quite nice accesories. But in my opinion, Tourism Board should give more atention to simple details like the variety and commercial value of the product. Does it worth the 2 hours drive? hmm..not really..but at least we were happy :)

My Wednesday..

I woke up late today (actually i consciously ignored the scream my alarm for 20 times..haha) Rushed to prepare myself and fullfill the minimum appearance requirements of a teacher. But i made it to school before the clock strike to 7. Yay! not bad for starting of the day.. A bit relax today coz all form 3 students has PMR talk.. :)

Had a very long breakfast with my girlfriend, catching up with the latest gossip. Shared a good laugh... So far i have a pleasant morning here at school.. Wish myself more smiles for the other half of the day. :)

Tomorrow is just a day away..

It's almost 12 and my eyes is getting heavier.. ..wonder what tomorrow will bring for me.. Hopefully something that can make me smile..

Work, teach, students...tomorrow is just a few hours away..