Live n love..

Live n love..simple.. but can we survive the journey? It's up to us...

No matter how great your feeling is, the other party might not appreciate it.. End up you are crying alone.

People said, let it go.. move on..I want that more than anything in the world, but the memory haunts me.. I need help..

Front liners of a big name...

I noticed this kind of stuff since my first degree.. n i despise it ever since. It sort of the pain in the 'heart'..

Few days ago, my friend and i went to a very famous supermarket in this small town.. (Well almost 90% of the population shop there..so considered very famous la kan). Okay, since it hold a very massive reputation in this town.. i think it is logic to ensure a pleasant shopping period for the customers.. But what happen was really disappointing.

We went to the counter and waited for a while before we had our turn.. we wanted to buy the transparent handiplast (for facial). There were stacks of handiplasts and since the stacks were behind the counter the staf/cashier need to check it for us (that is how it suppose to be..right?). But when we ask for her assistance and we did ask a lot of questions, she showed obviously rude facial expression. After a while, she left us just like that. we waited innocently and pathetically. She went to do something insignificant instead of entertaining our requests and questions..

After using all my patience tolerating, she finally pushed my limit button. I couldn't wait anymore. So i consiously went behind the counter and check the stacks myself. I went out after one of the staff asked me to. And i was ready to explain to the manager if things happen to go a little bit further... But luckily i had a very understanding friend with me..

This is an ancient and typical issue highlighted when we talk about the service provided by staff at counter ; receptionist, cashier, general worker, salesperson..etc..I don't get it. What's with the attitude?? Do they know that they are specifically paid to entertain the requests of customers??

Not all of them behave that way and not all customers has a low level of patience as i am..but everybody knows that as front liners, they suppose to have a good PR to attract customers.. After all, customers are their informal employer and they (staff) are the faces of the company. A little smile wouldn't hurt..

As you read this, you might say that this is a one-sided story since i might not know the tense of front liners. Hmm..every job comes with unique tense. Think carefully before you decide to accept the offer. Give logic performance. Don't simply focus on the paycheck. Don't u think so?

Weekend..

I had a blast last nite. The aunt's party was fun.. Shots of Stanley's really got the adrenalin going... It was good to loosen up.. now i'm sobber with a pile of book to check.. Tomorrow, i need to face my naughty students again..

I wish tomorrow is saturday~

The way you see things..

If you want something so bad...don't you think you should fight for it? You would be restless till you got what you want.. Especially when it is about something that can cause regrets throughout your life..and the choice you make now is going to determine the colour of your future life.. Hmm..i guess you don't see it that way...

Life is drifting us further apart...

Another weekend...

Hmm...spending my saturday nite with movies.. with a very small laptop screen..i guess this saturday is just another weekend. All the plans were cancelled.. So much for the 'nice' weekend i had in mind. ...sigh... I wish i am not too dependent... I wish it is safe for me to go out alone..i wish kk is just 15 minutes away.. I miss my UMS life.. at least i got my circle of friends :(

The Saturday...

Saturday finally...i get to spend all evening for myself.. i suppose to have everything i need now...but i feel lonely.. Now i prefer my hectic schedule than a lonely evening like this..

I want to go out and enjoy the lovely evening but i don't feel safe to go out alone..this is what happen when you are supplied with so many crime stories.. haha... Im imagining a white beach all for myself...a safe one of coz.. a big bottle of 100 plus, sunblock, sunglasses, shorts, a good book and an MP3 full of nice songs would be enough to make my saturday.. hmm...i wish..

Sitting alone in my room is like giving all the memories chance to come knocking and say 'hi' to my present life. ...sigh... honestly i kind of dunno what to do when they come...

i'm making some positive progress..i know..but would it be enough?.. Is anyboy out there got pills for erasing memories?? I would love to have those pills please..

Hmm...i want my mum... :(

I wasn't okay...

From the moment i wake up, i know that i won't perform as expected. I feel so tired an weak. It was like i had a date with a vampire the night before and he sucked all of my red blood cells out of my body.. I was pale and light headed. And my limbs didn't want to corporate with me..but for the sake of commitment, i gave up all the energy left in me to the game. After the game, i dragged my feet to a clinic. And that was where i dissapoint him.. I swear i could have blacked out if i didn't rush home and lie down.. i've been losing too much blood...without proper breakfast n lunch..and after a few volleyball match..i was pretty much 'wasn't okay'..i'm sorry..

It is a wonder why we feel so fragile in situations like this..Why can't we be strong throughout all circumstances no matter how hard we try??