Tired....

I've been yawning for the past hours, but i sneak out of my busy schedule...just for the satisfaction of pouring everything out...

Yesterday, i woke up early and survived a few hours of non-stop classes at school and three tuition classes from 3.30 to 9 pm.. had a very late sleep and....today, woke up early to obey the requirements of the timer punch machine in our general office..survived hours of classes and an extra class with another tuition coming at 7..now.....i am sooo extremely tired... here i am, sitting alone in the teacher's room patiently counting every minutes to go bck...trying my very best not to fall into the temptations of this cold rainy evening...and sail away with my dreams...

Huhu.. this tight schedule is killing me..but i managed to find smiles and laughter between them.. i shared jokes with my students in a tired mode.. we had good laugh in class talking about silly stuff between the questions.. and those were my energy booster.. as much as they depend on me for guidance, i depend on them to survive my very day.. Thanks :)

My head is getting heavier..and it's time to go home....

A commitment...

So many things happened...n i promised myself to write it out everytime...but i couldn't find the time, where i cn be alone and focus to my laptop..

Now i'm sneaking out of my busy schedule, just to have the satisfaction of letting it out..

I made a commitment..a 9 years commitment..and eventhough i'm so tight now..never once i regret the decission. He's going to be with me as long as i can protect him..before life takes him away..His name is Jonathan and i call him Nathan. His colour is black..He's a present from me to myself...for all the hardwork i ever did.. He is my persona..and i love him ;).

A little heaven on earth

Is it too much of me asking to have this?? A simple element in life that makes us alive.. A reason to smile and breathe everyday.. A reason to b bold and face the worlds' challenges and turn them into something worthy and meaningful..

We only have one heart, one life...and it is our responsibilty to make it contented... Regardless of who we are... we are worth of the happiness..Is it too much of me to make sure that i have what i dreamt of? i wanna find my home...n hopefully my 'home' can find its way into my heart too.. Amen..


Understanding is still beautiful.. Forgiveness is essential.. Forgetting comes after understanding and forgiveness.. But a lot of us can't reach the third stage..

If it's not 'him'...there must be someone somewhere that was made for us..We've been presented with opportunities...but should we take it? It's up to us..up to a little thing called heart...and a sprinkle of chemistry..for our hearts know if we can give the commitments..and the chemistry is the indicator..coz they come with the package of a having a 'home'.. If we can't commit, let it go..please...

Here i am..wondering what God has stored for me..understanding the beauty of His plan.. knowing that He knows best...