I'm scared...

The starting was shaky..

Was he the brightest star? ..No..
Was he the brilliant one? ...No..
Was he the big bucks?..No..
Was he the the most compassionate? ..No..

But i chose to move on..
On what basis?...Hmm..the fact that he made me smile n laugh..the fact that he could be a nice home..

Trials, necessity, commitments..then the reality rushed in..
I backed him up..with all my heart i did (i wish he know how hard i tried). Never did i stand behind someone as solid as i did for him.. I cleared all the paths so there could be 'us'..

Unfortunately throughout the journey, I've been hurt so many times.. He bruised my ego a few times..I try to heal the wound every time.. Hoping that we could have fresh start each time.. and... i still chose to move on..

I told him..reasoned with him..made sure he understand the ground rules of maintaining our combination. But here we go again..

After all the changes i made.. All the defending, all the sacrifices.. He consciously did the mistake.. (Wonder where the hell was his principle???!! He promised me!)

Am i that worthless?

I'm scared of what this gonna do to me..will i change to someone new just to survive..or will i walk away for good..