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Pernahkah kau bicara
Tapi tak di dengar
Tak di anggap
Sama sekali..

Pernahkan kau tak salah
Tapi disalahkan
Tak di beri
Kesempatan...

Kuhidup dengan siapa
Ku tak tau kau siapa
Kau kekasihku tapi
Orang lain bagiku
Kau dengan dirimu saja
Kau dengan duniamu saja
Teruskan lah.. Teruskan lah
Kau begitu ...

Kau tak butuh diriku
Aku patung bagimu
Cinta buta
Kebutuhan mu ...

Kau dengan dirimu saja
Kau dengan duniamu saja
Teruskan lah
Kau begitu...

;)

Hydrology and earth system science...Hmm..kind of stuck with these jurnals.. Can't have my rest until i finish reviewing them.. I'm sooooo weak and sleepy... But for my beloved aunty Odye, i have to stay focus n finish this..

Being extremely tired, weak and sleepy doesn't stop me from having another craving. hehe..Now i'm imagining Starbucks Caramel Latte and Big Apple alien donut ...hmmm...tapun....;s

Another teacher story..

I've been having endless tuition classes and tasks to do. Didn't even have a quality 'me' time lately. But then..it comes with the package kan.. Today my evening tuition class is canceled, so here i am..pouring another thought.

I know i've talk abt this, but today i feel like talking abt it again..because today i feel so weak and tired..but something made me smile..Today..a few colleagues came to me and ask about a student of mine. They inquire abt the reason he obviously changed. He was a lazy and passive student in the weakest class.But now we become one of the diligent student and even apply to be a member of English club. He came to meet me during recess and at the end of school almost everyday asking for guidance in English Language. Make corrections for every mistakes he did. I think the explanation is..he changed the way he sees English.... and i am the medium.

It makes me smile...

I am not an optionist. Never had a proper training in English. I don't have the enthusism and pedagogy of a TESL graduates...and English is just my second language, but i'm happy with the small changes that i can do to 'memperkukuhkan Bahasa Inggeris' among students. haha

But the most satisfying feeling is...it feels all my exhaustion for these past few weeks is paid off.. :) thats one of the reasons i love being a teacher..

Teaching is holistic..

Wise men say it is..so..it is then. Haha.. Being a teacher for a few months has open my eyes to another angle in life. A very extreme change of a student. Never really occur to me that it is possible (especially caused by me), although I always bear in mind that nothing is impossible. The possibilities of me changing a very passive student to an active one. It’s a very satisfying feeling.. I hope he’ll continue changing for good..
Teachers are really a ‘walking ABM (Alat Bantu Mengajar)’ (Thanks to Dr.Ruslin for that). The way you mix around, talk, dress, smile,joke, teach and even your patience are actually included in the teaching and encouraging process of the young minds… Theory has it that teenagers are looking for their identities in this specific phase of life..
So, wearing a ’teacher’ name tag is pretty much…having yourself being one of the identity indicator.. haha..

The 'package of life'

There are so many interpretations about life.. Especially about future..But one thing for sure…it is unpredictable..One moment you are sure about something then 5 seconds later, life present to you a situation that makes you question your decisions.
Sometimes you feel like giving up, after trying for so many times..bored with the uncertainties..then you start looking for solutions..and might misinterpret some of it..
Sometimes you just stop thinking…blacked out..
Well, life wouldn’t be so much fun if everything is predictable right? Hmm…