Not in the mood...

I'm annoyed n i'm releasing the tense by crying.. Don't even know if he will ever understand.. Even if i try to make him understand, i have to prepare myself to be disappointed again.. n i kind of not in the mood to be disappointed..Play n joke around all u want, but pls b serious if it's important.. The planning n implementation involved so many hearts.. including MINE.

i am annoyed!

I finally found the motivation + excitement + perseverance to do what i decided to give up weeks ago.. Chasing the final due date needs every single enthusiasm left in me.. Denying the urge to do something fun and 628% focus on this assignment kind of remind me my spm preparation feeling years ago.. Complete this, n all my burden is going to be lifted permanently from me for the rest of my life.. n i would be a very happy lady... :)

But i'm kind of annoyed now.. Cant seem to focus to the above stuff.. Cant seem to find the exact reason but i guess it has something to do with my expectations.. I did my part according to the sequence but i cant seem to get corporation from the other party..

Delays due to so many reasons..kind of tired of asking..n checking..n reminding...coz everytime i tried to go to the bottom of the problem, he'll end up making jokes and after the long conversation trying to highlight the logic to him, he will produce a very sluggish implementation with 15 more reminders..i got annoyed just by reminding him.... I am tired of it.. can i just let him alone and play by his rhythm?

Look..i have a very heavy head-cracking stuff to attend to, please..do ur part and help me with the planning... i can't do this alone.. it's not only ur work, family n friends that matter.. i got mine too... God! i'm annoyed...

Problems, anyone??

I have about 20 problems rushing annoyingly into my brain.. messing with my emotion..making me volatile...with the way i think, i know i'm gonna be exhausted sooner than i estimated.. i just hope i have somebody or something to untangle this problems for me..The worst is, i don't know anybody with that ability yet.. Maybe i need a superman? (Ha ha - forcing myself to poke my waist and laugh)

General advice: try to attend the problems 1 by 1.. think positively..the sun gonna shine even after the most horrendous storm...:)

Okay.. but what if the problems are kind of inter-related? n what if the sun actually shines a bit to late? ;(

Sigh..I still want a black out..

I'm tired...

I thought i was secured..

I was in high spirit when everything collapse in a few minutes.. I was tired with all the simple details that needed to be attended before the due dates.. i hate it when i don't get what i think i deserve to get after all the hard work i did..

Come on people..

I think i want to shut down for a moment.. no more questions to answer..no more plannings to do, no more sugarcoating of the annoying and disapointing problems..no more.. i just want to lay back and get all the rest i need..i just want to black out!

Suddenly i don't feel like i want any of these anymore :(