Understanding is still beautiful...

Understanding...

Take time to understand a condition that being presented upon you..instead of just mumbling sharp words, slicing the hidden honesty. It would be a relief to you but it hurts the other party.

Protecting your priceless ego by hurting other isnt a victory. Especially to someone that you claim to be so dear to you..

Jealousy and love doesnt always a good combination. Everybody knows that and i'm pretty sure you do too.

Wake up..or you'll find yourself in regrets...

I wonder why...

Why do people have to act like their rules are the standard ones? or their principals are the ones that should become the examples? or that their ego is the one that is worth protecting instead of others?

We lived and grew in various background.... and life experiences induced our thinking...making us who we are now..and we are all different of cos...My opinion might differ from others..Thats one of the earth norms..right?

So...if u are an A and i am a B...we should be an A+B through compromises right? But why do we still fight over something so simple?? I wonder why...

People..the next time u want to start a fight..remember that everybody has their own ground rules and principals.. and we have something called 'explanation' to sort things out..

Eventhough ego is one of the essential element of humanity.. we know that overprotecting it isn't always the way out..

Does anybody has extra momentum to be given away?

Still struggling to finish what i have started...knowing the due date wasnt helping o..ayoo..and its December.. My mum is busy arranging our family's schedule for making sure we attend every family gathering this month..

Parties.. bbqs... gossiping...christmas mood... im sure i'm gonna fall into temptations..haha.. help meeee...i need momentum to finish this...

Cryopreservation and enhancement of Leonurus sibiricus seeds

Its quite a challenge to do something that u are not excited about.. It has been series of postponed semesters to give priority to something else.. hmm...need to get momentum to do this tedious writing.. Claiming to b a master to this topic demands quite a lot.. with the temptations of food and bed...and endless chats ..huhu

Where did i put the results? the journals? and the due date is getting closer..ayoo

Teachers

These were the faces of the young minds that opens my mind to the new perspectives of pedagogy. They were sweet and innocent but have a very demanding needs.. Your best decision might not be their favourite but one thing for sure, they love it when you smile. No matter how high the tension is, your smiles would calm their rebellious intentions. I might be novice..not even officially own the 'teacher' name tag, but i do know that the young ones doesnt need to be scrutinize.

Having the little experience, i am begining to understand the feeling of my previous teachers. Some of them become my idols and i realize that i still remember their words. Still wish to meet and tell them what i've become. Just to add up their reasons to be proud of being a teacher. Especially 'my' teacher.

But.. i do have the memories of teachers that i wish i wont stumble across in life. The reason why i dont favor that specific subject until now. I know i'm being a little bit '......' (not sure what word to use), but they do leave a negative scar in my academic journey. For those teachers..i'm sorry..

You open my eyes to the new approach of teaching though. and i believe, that you believe it was the best way to handle us (ur students). But i also believe that you know u hurt our feeling. Anyway, i thank you for the knowledge that you share with us. And i appreciate for the 1001 things that you have done for us. I wish you all the best.

My journey is still thousand miles ahead..i can only plan what kind of teacher i want to be...not sure what kind of teacher i would turn to, but for sure i'll try to be my own favourite teacher. Thank you teachers..

The end of the evaluation..

For the last three months, our pedagogy skills were put under microscopes. Evaluated by the experts, commented and expected to improve.

Nervousness was our friend for the sudden visit of supervisor. Lesson plans were readied days before the class. Slide shows were perfectly arranged and google image was my best friend.

Finally the final evaluation has passed. The burden goes away together with the A- that i get for my practical. They said that A- is good enough for practical, so..i'm happy enuf with the grade.

Now, going to school is more....relax.. Gonna have fun with the students in my final week here. Share jokes with the teachers..and..see what the 'posting' has for me. ;)

Raya lesson

They said ' You don't know what you got till it's gone.' After what happened recently, i kind of agree with that..

Well, as someone who live very far away..(Sabah is considered far la..coz you need a few hundred ringgit to cross the ocean kan..) and financially tight, staying at hostel during the one week raya holiday kind of the best solution. I forced my sister to join me n we were happily contented with boredoom. huhu

Waking up in the morning without any demanding schedule was heavenly. But, the essential part of a hostel life is dreadfully showing its absence.. The path to bathroom was pathetically decorated with cat's poop.. The smell was strong enough to knock a horse down. The journeys to the restroom were nightmares..i remind myself to drink less water just to avoid the bathroom. Oh ya, not to mention the dustbins.. And i have to put up with it for a week! God! I miss the 'mak cik cleaner' damn much!

After almost a week, i wake up one morning, dragging my feet and cursing the biological need of my bladder, i noticed the decoration dissapear and the path to the bathroom was shining like crystal...the smell reminds me of the mixture of citrus.. wow.. (okay that was exagerated)..
At the end of the path, i saw a figure mopping the floor intensely..it was the 'mak cik cleaner'. muahahaha.. feels like jumping n hugging her n tell her how much she was missed. But of cos i didn't do that.

After this, i would never take any 'mak cik cleaner' for granted anymore. I think they are really the saviour to our comfortable hostel life.

Hehe...my raya lesson.

The practical

I have survived almost 2 months in this school..i survived the adrenalin rush for the first classes.. i survived the sceptical looks, 1st impression judgements...i survived a few observations in flying colours (so they told me)..i have established a comfortable relationships with the eager young minds and i even have a few favourite students..

I shared some jokes and laughters with my students..received some compliments...lose my temper to the noty ones..but i think i've got my practical period just nice.. Thank God..

Another 5 weeks..and i'm almost ready to wear the 'teacher' name tag.. can't wait.. Lets just hope the final 5 weeks wont gv me a hard time.. (cross finger).

Being a teacher is not that bad ;)

Practical

Tomorrow is the starting of the applications of our micro teching classes..student psychology..scaffolding..all the old folks theories.. No more Prof.Rashidi's voices to corect us..no more Dr. Radzani to joke around. New faces..new superisors..new demand to stisfy..Hmm..kind of hard to imagine.. Suddenly the reasons i'm in this came flashing..

My roomate cant sleep..me neither..Tomorrow is just a day away..

RDK..

I promised myself to write something about RDK so that i can provide a peek on the other side of life to others..

Perkhemahan Perdana Rekreasi dalam Komuniti Peringkat Negeri Pahang..115 of us (UKM DPLI Students) were given a noble task to organize this programme and take care of 60 students with learning disabilities (LD). Slow learner, hyperactive, down syndrom, passive and physical disabilities..thousands of impressions and predictions rushed into the minds of first timers like me.

How do u communiate with this kind of LD kids? Dealing with normal kids causes enuff headache..hmm... They are going to sleep in camps... how do u keep them safe? How about their shower? Meal? can they manage without their parents or guardians? The programmes were repelling, flying fox, jungle trekking, swimming (water confident)..Hmm??

After this programme, i understand why do people say 'Don't judge a book by its cover..' These kids are superb..taking into consideration that public labeled them as 'disable'..they r really outstanding! they r capable of producing something creative, take the physical challenge, giving full commitments to the tight schedules (even some of us can't) and be a team player.

This one particular boy..Anuar..a hyperactive kid..he was capable of presenting the opening gimic for the closing ceremony of a Perkhemahan Perdana Peringkat Negeri with his 'tomoi' moves...n he presented it beautifully..if his father was there..i bet he was very proud.. i was just a facilitator..but i shared the proudness..

So people...there is a group of students which labeled as 'disable' at the corner of our education system that need attention and space..Open our eyes and include them in our planning and implementations of education programmes..because if u can see their capabilities..they deserve opportunities..

Wandering spirit

They say that blog is a place where we can put our heart and mind out.. So here i am..

There are so many things going on in this little brain.. sometimes..it feels like bursting out. Yet being a human, i have to take the 'package' as well. Life is full with ups and downs...n the downs sometimes feel like hell.

When i was a little girl..i was eager to be a woman..now that i am one, i learnt that being a woman is not as easy as my childhood imaginations. Being a daughter n a sister..a friend and a student..being a part of community..can be tiring..

It's generally everybody's responsibilities and scenario that i am talking about...i know. But it helps just to pour it out.

Whatever it is..i'll continue walking this path of life..yeah!

Its the end of 2nd sem..

Exams...again..dunno for how many times already...but i'll sit for another one 2moro.. I havent read a thing..nor understand much about this subject, but i feel surprisingly calm. Hmmm..that is what worries me..

I better start some reading..huhu..chow

Life..

Its been a while... n i am still standing...haha..

Again..DPLI life..there are so many things need to be done in a very short period. It seems like we are not on the ground, need to move fast in order to get things done..so..we float.. (okay, that was .. kind of exagerated). But time do flies fast..

RDK.. gonna b a new experience for me.. Wud it be exciting? i wud rather put no expectation. Havent really understand my limitations on this one. This gonna b my first time..but i do hope for the best with those 'special' adik2.. hope to learn a lot from them.. Looking forward to see the other side of life.

Kuala Lipis...here we come..

BIG 2 DPLI UKM 2009

Abseiling, Kayaking, Nite camp, Karaoke, Tribal dance, Island explorace, Swimming, Camping, Snorkeling, Tonnes of fun and......Bullied! It maybe a sweet memory in a nightmare...but we certainly hope it would be a sweet memory in a sweet dream.. Anyway, Pangkor, here we come!!

DPLI life dis March and April

i bought a big bottle of my fav shower foam..new blanket..eat sushi, cakes...kfc...n many2 more...went to karaoke..balas dendam for all the time i was broke...huhu puas hati ! looking forward to buy the pink babe! want to do my nail..buy the lovely blause that i always want...new jeans...new camera... sandal at crocs...hmm...want to shop till i drop! we have waited for the allowance for ages..muahaha...finally we got it...money money money...!

BUT!!!....hmm...BIG, seminar, college fees, programme fees...sigh..need to jimat2 after fikir all this..huhu...

Exam...asiggnments.. waa...dunno how we are going to survive the coming week. But, 10 months to get a diploma, this is wat we hv to go through..apa ble buat..huhu

to all my dpli friends, all the best! after the torture of exams and assignments...we'll have a blast at Pangkor! yeah!

Taman Sinar Harapan..a different perspective..

10 march 2009. DPLI students got a trip to Taman Sinar Harapan, Kuala Kubu Baru..A very special place..This trip really touches my stubborn ego. The farewell wave from Fitri looked so sad.. sort of telling us, that they don't want much from us..They might need our money to survive..but they just want to share our smiles as the reason for living.

I feel sorry for myself for doubting the outcome of this Community Service Activities earlier. I feel sorry for how naive i am...thinking that i have bigger problems in life...thinking that i don't have enough of everything..thinking how people fail me...because turned out there is bigger things out there and i thank God for i've seen it today...

Tonight, here i am..blogging in the comfort of our nice little dorm after having my simple dinner. My mind flies back to this morning's activities, imagining how their room look like..their clothes..meals.. God..they need more. And they are counting on normal people like us..that has sane mind, education and cash to see things like we suppose to..to help them survive...to just simply colour their lives with our smiles..

I still remember how Fitri sang nasyid songs enthusiastically ...how Baby, Amy and Diana try their very hard to help with the chores....and sweet faizal answering our questions shyly.. o ya, how Amir proudly shows us his drawings..how hard Jeremy tried to say my name...and the predictable laughter from Mohd.Noh..i can say this is the trip of my life..it changes the way i see things.. Fitri, Baby, Amy, Diana, Faizal, Amir , Jeremy and Mohd. Noh...Thanks!

T.E.A.C.H.E.R

Friends, we are newbies to this profession. We got about 7 months to go before officially labeled as 'TEACHER'...We got various memories of our school season.. There were teachers that we like an adore...boring teacher...mean teacher..fun teacher..Whatever our nature or backgrounds are, lets us be the teacher that we ourselves would love.. But most of all, we need to be efficient teachers..Here are some tips from Julia Thompson;

Right now is the perfect time to decide how you can be an efficient teacher. Efficient teachers enjoy school more because they are not always scrambling to get their work caught up, know when meetings are scheduled, and can find keys, phone numbers, and their grade books.
Here are five quick tips to consider if you want to be an efficient teacher .

1. Write it down. Use calendars, agendas, to-do lists, and sticky notes to make notes about what you are supposed to do and when you are supposed to do it. The life of a teacher is too complicated to keep in your head. Find a method that works for you and stick to it.

2. Don’t get behind. Grade papers and record those grades as soon as you can. Follow advice from veteran teachers such as: stagger due dates, file papers daily, don’t grade every single paper, and record grades electronically every few days.

3. Delegate what you can. Even young students can tidy a classroom, put away books, and help maintain a bulletin board. Your classroom is full of helping hands.

4. Do it right the first time. Any task that you do well the first time means that you will not have to spend time reworking it later.

5. Plan how you will use your time.Some teachers create schedules where they perform specific tasks each day (Monday is planning, Tuesday is photocopying…) Still others make sure to make one trip only to the office each day. Whatever action you decide on, be sure to plan how you spend you time at school so that the week just doesn’t drift by.

Have fun teaching, so you won't feel like working at all..Good Luck friends!:)

Cuti day..

Today is the end of our long weekend.. i'm sure people are in high spirit to start the routine tomorrow..I wish everybody happy Tuesday for tomorrow and may we have an amazing weekdays.

One Utama visit...

Makan timee...Dis time to Shogun Japanese Buffet Restaurant at One Utama.. If u r a seafood lover, u come to the rite place. Its paradise in there..Neway..i was in some sort of 'pantang'..but i force my friend to force me to break it...so i can blame it on her..haha.. The other dishes r superb! The sushi got the most of my appetite..but the dessert was pretty regular..We ate and talk for 3 hrs..It is so worth it. Thanks Hani... Then we go window shopping. Gosh! Need to control my shopping urge from buying a gorgeous and glamourous pink heels at Nose..Head over heels for the pink babe ...but, my allowance is still pending..sigh..did i mention that there was a 50% sale?..sigh... Went for a movie later that nite. 'Watchmen' gave a little twist on superhero stories.. Worth to pay RM9 for the ticket.. Overall...another nice weeekend.. Looking forward for next outing..

My 07022009 Saturday..

It's Saturday once more..hehe..fav day of the week. I 'accidently but happily 'went to meet my little sister at Shah Alam. Finally get to meet a relative after 2 months here. ;) ...Her apartment was quite nice with friendly sabahan cuties and nice view. They got swimming pool for tenants..hehe. i wud definitely go back for the pool..

He is a fine creation of God...and he is hot!

Personal information
Full name: Cristiano Ronaldo dos Santos Aveiro
Date of birth: 5 February 1985 (1985-02-05) (age 24)
Place of birth : Funchal, Madeira, Portugal
Heigh t: 6 ft 1 in (1.85 m)
Playing position : Winger
Current club : Manchester United
Number : 7

Evening visitors..

It was 6.30 pm. I was enjoying the evening...surfing net, checking friendster account, clearing my yahoo inbox.. My roomate was performing her solat. In the middle of her solat, my roomate suddenly started to scream my name in panic and pointing at the window. At first i didnt get it (my mind was 110% at my laptop).. but when i looked at the window there was a little not-so-cute dirty monkey eagerly trying to get inside our room. And there was a 1 minute screaming and jumping session between me and my roomate before i finally get to close and lock our window. hahaha..She had to perform her solat 1 more time after that.

Those who stay at A n B blocks (Zaaba College, UKM)are familiar with this 'visitors'. 4-7 pm is their 'visiting hours'. They would happily enter rooms without people in it and happily steal our food supplies.. Huh!... So, if you guys happen to stay at this particular blocks, its kind of important to keep your windows locked whenever you are not in, or risk losing your food and get germs all over your room, even on your beds...imagine....yucks!

Tom Yam Goong...

Wednesday..I spend the whole day doing assignments and treat myself a delicious (the best i ever taste in Za'ba) tom yam soup for dinner.

Hmm..it reminds me of the fresh seafoods in Sabah..Can't wait to go back.. :) For readers out there who hasn't visited Sabah yet, you are welcome. And while you were there do try the seafood. It is cheap and fresh. But not every restaurant in KK can serve you freshness. I recommend Gayang Restaurant which is located in a mangrove area. It's one of my fav.You won't find seafood as fresh as Gayang's even at KK hotels (trust me with this one). For tom yam lover....hmm..Tam Nak Thai or Nok Thai restaurants are among the best. Fresh seafood tom yam..yummy..

Holistic Education

This is our group assignment for 'Education Philosophy' course. Me and my groupmates are brainstorming to meet to the minimum-30 pages-essay limit.. Fuh...quite a challenge because none of us has philosophy background. The articles and books we got from PTSL didn't help much..it was written in 'alien' language..haha. Regardless the obstacles, the essay must be submitted on 12th week..So, back to bussiness!

CSI..the very name, says it all..

I am a CSI lover. Since i have no access to ASTRO in this DPLI term..need to buy cd. Huhu...Duit lagi.. CSI is a perfect publication. It is informative with unpredictable script and it is full of scientific logics. One would never get bored watching this brilliant series. I can watch it all day, if only my laptop can take it..haha..After few attempts to kill Sara Sidle, Nick Stokes, Gil Grissom and even kidnaped Cathrine Willows' daughter, they (bad guys) finally succeed in killing warick.. Warrick is dead in season 8 (part 2). Huhu..He was a fine CSI. Haven't watch this episode but a trusted 'informer' told me. I hope they get another fine character for replacing Warrick's.

Glory glory Man United!

I bet 3-1 for Manchester United vs Tottenham Hotspur.. But i got better result! MU won 4-1. :D.. Eventhough it was through penalties, but still MU won the Carling Cup! MU is the best!

My 28022009 Saturday....

Went to Seremban n Nilai..Had tonnes of fun and laughter with my long lost friend...Had dinner at The Manhattan Fish Market and watch Valkyrie..Wasnt really into the movie, but the food was definitely superb. And the significant contributor to my tension-releasing outing was..Mira.. Thanks Mie!

Relax on Saturday..

Alligators in the Pool

A CEO throwing a party takes his executives on a tour of his opulent mansion. In the back of the property, the CEO has the largest swimming pool any of them has ever seen.
The huge pool, however, is filled with hungry alligators.
The CEO says to his executives "I think an executive should be measured by courage. Courage is what made me CEO. So this is my challenge to each of you: if anyone has enough courage to dive into the pool, swim through those alligators, and make it to the other side, I will give that person anything they desire. My job, my money, my house, anything!"
Everyone laughs at the outrageous offer and proceeds to follow the CEO on the tour of the estate. Suddenly, they hear a loud splash. Everyone turns around and sees the CFO (Chief Financial Officer) in the pool, swimming for his life. He dodges the alligators left and right and makes it to the edge of the pool with seconds to spare. He pulls himself out just as a huge alligator snaps at his shoes.
The flabbergasted CEO approaches the CFO and says, "You are amazing. I've never seen anything like it in my life. You are brave beyond measure and anything I own is yours. Tell me what I can do for you.
The CFO, panting for breath, looks up and says, "You can tell me who the hell pushed me in the pool!"

My best friend's wedding..the happy ending..

Wedding...wedding....n more weddings.. My best friends are getting married. This year i will lost them to their beloved ones. The hanging out and crazy things with me won't be their top priority anymore..The topic of our talk maybe more to 'housestairs' (rumahtangga...haha). and soon there would be the little ones..haha..Hey don't get me wrong, i'm happy for them..but have to admit that losing best friends to their 'soulmate' is kinda bittersweet..and it happen to be all in the same year..2009..sigh..

Wedding dress..cards..decorations..all the attention...cakes..flowers.. music..honeymoons... It's the dream of every couples on earth...It is just a matter of time..And i'm happy for my beloved bestfriends. Their time has come..They have found their Mr. Rights and happy endings.. May God bless their marriage.

Girls..Don't ever forget me and our memories..Coz there would be time when would i show up on ur front door and 'interefere' with your life.Just to make sure i am not forgotten...haha ..Love you girls!

Jogging!

Today, for the first time ever, i know how Tasik Kejuruteraan UKM look like. I have a very high-spirited roomate together with a few friends that went jogging there almost everyday. And finally after a few persuasions, i joined them.. Haha..it was fun but not as fun as aerobics.. We plan for an aerobic dance session in the near future..hehe..Looking forward for that..

Hate it..

Hate this part..

We're driving slow through the snow on 5th Avenue
And right now radio's all that we can hear
That we ain't talk since we left, it's so over due
It's cold outside but between us
The world slows down
But my heart beats fast right now
I know this is the part
Where the end startsI can't take it any longer
Thought that we were stronger
All we do is linger
Slipping through our fingers
I don't wanna try now
All that's lefts good-bye
To find a way that I can tell you
I hate this part right hereI hate this part right here
I just can't take your tears
I hate this part right here
Everyday, seven takes of the same old scene
Seems we're bound by the laws of the same routine
Gotta talk to you now before we go to sleep
But will you sleep once I tell you
The world slows down
But my heart beats fast right now
I know this is the part
Where the end starts
I can't take it any longer
Thought that we were stronger
All we do is linger
Slipping through our fingers
I don't wanna try nowAll that's lefts good-bye
To find a way that I can tell youI hate this part right hereI
hate this part right hereI just can't take your tears
I hate this part right here
I know you'll ask me to hold on
And carry on like northing's wrong
But there is no more time for lies'Cause i see sunset in your eyes
I can't take it any longer
Thought that we were stronger
All we do is lingerSlipping through our fingers
I don't wanna try now
All that's lefts good-byeTo find a way that I can tell you
That I gotta do it,I gotta do it,I gotta do itI hate this partI gotta do it,
I gotta do it,I gotta do it
I hate this part right here
And I just can't take these tears
I hate this part right here